A little bit of this, and a little bit of that

So here I am again. 3:12am, elliot smith channel on pandora. Tea, and my mac. Thank God I'm here again! I've been neglecting my blog for way too long, and observing my dwindling writing talent over the years(what I once thought I had) has been much more painful than any bruises/injuries/papercuts/etc/etc

Practice makes perfect. It's true.

What have I been obsessing over lately? I could see that the last post was about solitude, and the post before was about neil geinman's novel. Well, lately, I have been obsessing over psychology books, knitting, and Pedro Almavodor's films (bad education, volver, and talk to me), trying to find what it is that I love doing...

i think this post is gonna be a little bit selfish than other posts. Yah, it's gonna be about me...

Just for the record, and yes- I feel like I'm connected to the 'bad economy' phase of the world. I'm laid off, yes- I'm 24, and I have been married, moved to a strange city, separated, and now laid off. I realized, everything that has brought me to Seattle has ended, so what is the point of staying? But, I look around. I look around to observe the life I have made for myself here- the routines, my house, my friends, a special person, and now just taking off is proving to be a bit more difficult. But you know what? I would rather have this than the other. I'm glad that I associate this place with things i 'care about.'


steve jobs said you have to find what you love. Much like relationships, you must never ever settle for something you half- love. I'm still in the process of finding what it is that I love- and really, there are so many things I love- I love art, design, people, and overall just being a helpful human being. I have so much appreciation for the humanity and all its creation, that I have a hard time focusing on what it is that I love. Ultimately though, it is people that I love the most and it is people I find the most fascinating. I feel like this might open another chapter in my life. Another career choice. Am I making the right decision? I will never know unless I try.

Here is to the unexpected chapter 2 of my life.